Accept, Adjust, Adapt

Upward Bound=Potential Parent Hood

2009-07-16T20:38:00.003-04:00

Hello Folks!
Currently I am in Werblin with my wonderful, smart, intellectual Upward Bound students LOL. (Def juss made it seem like they are angels huh?) lol

Nah but they are a great bunch of kids though. Different backgrounds and different surroundings than the usual individual. The students and I, however, have very similar backgrounds that attract me to them and make me wanna be there for them...

BUT

I shall list some low points about the occupation:
Not only am I a "Resident Mentor" but I am:
a Caterer
a police officer
a parole officer
a teacher
a parent
a sibling
a tutor
a student
a friend
a foe
and many other things that I cannot mention because of the lack of time that I have. Sometime I feel as if I have the weight of two worlds on my shoulders and yes i have been "thrown under the bus" several times by students and co-workers in general. This job requires a lot and i repeat A LOT of patience and rationale (if I used the word correctly lol)
O YEAH I ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I DNT GET PAID ENUFF FOR THIS!!!!! LOL

Now for some positives:

I have illegally** adopted a younger brother or shall I say "mini me"

lol my lil bruh Warren, just as stubborn and rude as I am lol
I have adopted mad siblings lol and they are all great!

And now that the students are waiting for the bus I must bid my farewell until I find another time to type (Because I never can find time for myself anymore)

Hit me up people, i'll holla
Enrique

Whole "Nutha" Direction

2009-06-16T12:45:00.003-04:00

Wassup World?
I have been thinking about this for a long time, where I was going to take the direction of my blog because rather than using it as a personal memoir I would rather use it as a source of some sort. So let me think....

HMMMMM........

Well it makes sense that i honestly discus news reports ad upcoming/incoming news not only because I am a Journalism Major but also since I have already typed several news stories. So from here on out I will be MR. Enrique? LOL D@ RuLaH? Mr. Chambers? hmmmm I go by so many things....but I think I will use my middle name "Chambers" or Mr. Chambers because I have never used it and plus this would be a fresh start for me anyway.
Welcome Everyone to a new me...well...not new...but....YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!
O yeah, speaking of...I do have a twitter.....FOLLOW ME!
twitter.com/therulah
That's where I will be posting my personal, everyday happenings.

For Starters, I was just reading something on Yahoo News discussing the relationship between REM Sleep (Rapid Eye Movement and the point of sleep where dreams mostly occur) and an individuals emotions and how they are tied together. A scientist said something that stood out to me for some apparent reason and I'll put it up here for others 2 read...

"Our daily existence is largely influenced by our ability to understand our societal interactions, to understand someone else's emotional state of mind, to understand the expression on their face," says Ninad Gujar, a senior research scientist at Walker's lab and lead author of the study, which was recently submitted for publication. "These are the most fundamental processes guiding our personal and professional lives."

These findings aren't that intriguing to me because of the fact that i have believed the prior statement without help for sometime now....but do u really want to know what intrigues me? The fact that you can burn 72 Calories doing Laundry!!!!!!

Top 10 Household Chores for Burning Calories*
Chore	Calories
1. Moving furniture	225
2. Scrubbing floors	189
3. Raking leaves	171
4. Gardening	162
5. Mowing the lawn	162
6. Washing the car	153
7. Cleaning windows	153
8. Vacuuming	84
9. Washing dishes	76
10. Doing laundry	72
* Estimates based on a 150-pound person and 30 minutes of activity

So next time you feel like you need to get off your butt and make moves, try cleaning the house a little bit. Might end up burning 500 calories!

Life is like a Box of Chocolate

2009-05-11T14:40:00.002-04:00

Currently in bed listening to Teedra Moses while smoking a Black and Mild :-D
**Yup that's How I feel** lol

School is over, I'm officially a THIRD YEAR IN COLLEGE! lol I'm officially getting old :-D. I have been praying for so long for these days to come when I was to become an adult, and now, finally, they are here. And is this what I truly wanted? LOL More responsibility, more issues, more everything. But maybe I should have slowed down a little, def wasn't my choice 2 grow up quick but hey, Life works like that. Officially over my "save the world" thinking. I adopted a new way of thinking..."Save yourself and people who may matter"

Semester was intriguing. Had so many ups and downs that I will remember for the rest of my life and I do not regret any of the actions that I have taken, even when I did the bullshyt. Still going with my motto, "Accept, Adjust, Adapt" and focusing on the future of my well being...

This summer should be a revitalizing one. I have a summer job on lock working with high school kids with the same background as mine and I would love to make sure they make it to college as I did. Also, taking some classes trying to get out of college already! lol, sounds like I have everything under control right? Yeah, the funny thing is that's how it always sounds at first. I have everything under control but then the bullshyt happens, **or as my nig would saying it, "I caught the Jack" lol**

But either way for some odd reason I have come to terms with my semester. I don't know why though. I kind of didn't want to come to terms with my semester, but surprisingly, my brain is making me feel like I'm good, and I also feel like I'm genuinely OKAY...so I'll run with this feeling for as long as possible...

Don't get me wrong, the human race is still annoying to me lol, but the most I can do at the present time is make myself as....as...okay **take 2 lol
The Best thing for me to do right now is to make sure i'M fine, and as of rite now i'm aight...

On another note, I gotta give the happy birthday shout out to Whitney! I've known you for 11 years going on 12 and I don't regret any of our moments :-D Luv u sis.
I guess the next time I type I will be home? AM I ready for that yet? I'm not too sure...but I guess we will see huh? Until then my bloggers, this is Ricardo aka Enrique' signin' off..
D@ RuLaH

I gotta Find Peace of Mind

2009-05-05T15:45:00.003-04:00

I dunno, like, I've come to this realization before but today kinda put the icing on the cake about people...

People are mad funny, but you know what, I can't even say funny because it really isn't comical. Honestly, I know God gives people only as much as they can handle but come on God, I know my faith isn't that strong so I know that under the circumstances I'm in I can understand why I can't take the pressure. I need church or sumthin' forreal. I know individuals are not supposed 2 go into the church when they need help and leave when they are fine but the churches doors are always open.

I don't even know if the church is good enough for me....

I've been through entirely too much for me to still be living in this type of environment.

And to this day for some reason I styll can't function by myself...It hurts to feel like you can't be independent.

Entirely 2 much runnin' through the dome, can't even type everything out, so i'mma leave it alone...

to my fellow Bloggers, Accept, Adjust, Adapt

will be bak soon, hopefully the fire would have subsided--
Enrique'

You Can't knock the Hustle

2009-04-29T21:07:00.003-04:00

WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME BAK FRIENDS!!!!!

I KNOW I KNO I KNO I'VE BEEN GONE FOR ENTIRELY TOO LONG AND I SEND OUT MY APOLOGIES BUT BAK TO BUSINESS!
Now I know the semester is almost over but I have had a lot to learn of these several months and I guess that I will list them here lol.

1. NEVER EVER EVER EVER ASSUME LOL, forget about the saying lol, when you assume you fuck up, HORRIBLY. LOL
2. Giving "Chances" are for people who are innocent not ignorant and are willing to not fuk up n e more.
3. Don't let ANYONE tell you that who you are IS WRONG, or IS A PROBLEM!

Went through the bull dis semester but it's ok. I'm glad that I have some of the greatest people on dis Earth as friends lol. I realized that "I'mma special kinda nigga wit mine lol" and I posses qualities that people wish they had and/or hate on.

The blood fam is straight, bro moved out (showin some luv and hope yer doing well) Lil sis bout to go to prom (u deserve the best sis) and my two Older siblings are doing OK as well.

This semester I learned that college does have every type of individual that you could run into. And I realized that no matter how much of a people person you are not everyone is personable (if i said that right) lol, honestly, hold on lemme check a dictionary lmao....
(ELEVATOR MUSIC)
lol..."Dictionary.com: having an agreeable or pleasing personality; affable; amiable; sociable."

So I used it correctly, but yeah right now I'm blastin' Jay Z's "The Dynasty" wondering why I never played the whole album. Kinda tired, Have to wake up at 9:00AM and have to eat soon. WOn't mind the bro N da sis (Moses N Whit) to come through but other than that, tonight is not a "Social Night" lol

Before I go I would like to make a promise to my fellow bloggers that I'm sorry for the delay and I will be bak more often!

Until Next time, Accept, Adjust, Adapt
Enrique' aka D@ RuLaH

Kinda Sooped!

2009-01-18T11:47:00.002-05:00

Currently Listening to: Jamie Foxx and T-Pain's "Blame It"

So I'm going back to Rutgers today! I have been awaiting this day for a while now.
I've been going through it at home but i'm bout to be back at school where most of my troubles will go away.

I FINALLY GOT MY OUTFIT FOR THAT 80'S 90'S PARTY NAH MEAN!!! (sorry but i had to let the lingo out, lol) So i'mma put pics and stuff up right about......now:

THE SHIRT: So I was on Amazon.com one day just looking vigorously for 80's apparel and this amazing shirt came out of no where. Not only is the shirt themed "80's" with words like "Rad" lol but the colors will make me stand out and no one will probably have this shirt, so I think I did good in this portion. Also, I can more than likely rock this shirt on a regular day if I wanted to, in the long run, not wasting my money.

THE KICKS: So I'm guessing my theme is to "stand out" lol. The Adidas ZX600 Independence Day Sneakers match damn there perfectly with the shirt. A lot of people are probably going to rock Run DMC shirts and Kangols but no no no not me! lol Also, these kicks are another article of clothing that, when the time is right, i don't mind rocking again...probably with less colors though :-D.

THE ACCESSORIES: Now ofcourse I had to top it off with the Dookie Chain and the Black Frames. The Big gold Chains were in style back then and so were the glasses. I just hope i'm not doing too much or being too extra but at the same time THE 80'S WERE EXTRA lol and I'm trying to stand out anyway right? I'll be fine...

So yeah in less than an hour I'mma be on the road going back to school. My blog won't be as consistent as I would like it to be once the semester starts but I will honestly try to be on as much as possible. So on that note, I'mma be in my books, wait for all thiss tuff to be delivered and just cool out. Now i'mma bout to go listen to some N.E.R.D. Deuces!
Enrique'

American Idol Needs to STOP!!!

2009-01-13T20:58:00.002-05:00

These people need to stop having these individuals embarrass themselves!!!! The process to get to the judges is very intricate and strict and the American Idol executives let some of these people go on T.V. knowing that they're not going to make it and hurt these people's feelings!!!
:-/
That's all I have to say lol...
Now I'm going to continue watching them on T.V.
Enrique'

Babysitting + Snow Storm = Look for Outfit! lol

2009-01-10T16:14:00.006-05:00

Song of the Day: "By Your Side"
Jadakiss

One of my favorite rappers, (third to Nas and Biggie), song is symbolic for many reason, especially living in the hood where some of the lyrics are 100% true, but enough about the song.

Me and one of my bestfriends got into an argument today (because we are both stubborn). I hate our arguments though because since we are both stubborn one is usually never ready to hear the other out, this time i tried to fix the problem, but the friend wasn't having that so I guess i'mma keep it moving until we're ready to get the F*ck over it.

Now todays main purpose lol, So what I have been having problems with this entire week is WHAT THE HELL WILL I BE WEARIN TO THIS 80'S VS 90'S PARTY???? I usually don't have this problem and this might be like the third blog i've talked about it but I want to have the perfect combination of clothes. I'mma put some pics up to show what I'm looking for.

SOPISTICATED 80'S: Now this pic (person on the left) is of Mikey Rocks of "The Cool Kids" and this outfit is mad simple but "kool". The only thing is that it might not be "old skool" enough for me.

SUPER-SONIC 80'S: Okay so here I have the "Old-Skool" breakdancing uniform. I was thinking about going this route with like either the black track suit or like a red one and then just add mad different 80's accents to it (I.E. rimless glasses, dookie chain, bright kicks) This might be more cost effective too lol. I'm leaning more towards this at the moment.

UNMATCHING GALORE: Everyone who knows me knows that I HATE NOT MATCHING MY CLOTHES!!!! (Part of my ODD) I match everything from pajamas and boxers to outfits lol. The 80's were notoriously known for not matching and i'm down with the movement but I don't think this is the right route for me to go. lol

SoOoOooOOoo, at the moment, I don't know. I might just go with the Adidas track suit, but we'll see. On that note, I'm baby-sitting my niece and nephew for a bit. I'll put some pics of them up if I can find them. On that note, if anyone, AND I MEAN ANYONE, has any ideas hit me up. I'm open to suggestions!
Enrique'

CRAZY KIDS!!! i LOVE MY NIECE AND NEPHEW THOUGH! lol

GS POETRY is official!

2009-01-08T18:07:00.002-05:00

Whats up,
Todays song of the day: "Lady" By Mista
"Mista" was the group that Bobby Valentino was part of during his adolescent days. The song is mad old-skool (as myself) and is just cool to listen to, chill out and relax....I'll put the song somewhere on my post lol....but as usual, I digress...
I was inspired by the sis Dizzy's recently posted poem (Great job again by the way) and it made me want to go into my archive of poems i have saved up on Ghetto Soul Poetry.com (now known as gspoetry.com) I've belonged to the site for years now and have an archive of poems. Some of them are sad, some of them are full of anger (okay people i wrote them in highschool, wasn't everyone feeling like this lol) But yeah one of my favorite ones is called "Fly Away" and I'mma post it on here for my blog familia lol....Hope you enjoy!
Enrique'
p.s. This Poem got me an "A" in creative writing (throws up the dumbs up) lol

Fly Away
By: Rick Sentine

I used to think I was an Angel
In the sense that I helped the helpless
and bless the blessed-less with actions of
kind deeds with the proper needs
But now I've realized that i'm not
the spiritual guardian I thought i was.
Angels don't get talked down upon
Angels aid those that need to be aided
and the aided usually are grateful
The angels aren't hateful,hated, nor talked down upon
Atleast that's not what I think,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

What if Angels get verbally,mentally, or physically abused
everyday just because they were trying to help?
Aiding the unaided and attending the unattended
Could they just fly away?
At their dismay with feathers of a soft glory
and The wing span of unimaginable width?
Would they do it to get away from what they
believe is their duty?
With so much power behind their title
Can they ignore the great one and the bible?
and just go.............
wherever the wind would blow
their feathers of a soft glory?
Attached to wings with a wing span of unimaginable width?

An Angels Duty is an Angels duty!
But I have no contract bound to my cooperativeness
I am able to stop whenever I want
I could put my nature to adhere on a bolt lock.
Not easily tampered with.
Or I can choose to Fly away
With my tears being my feathers of a soft glory.
And my independance being my wings
with the wing span of unimaginable width?
Would I be able to ignore my duty
and fly away?

Countdown = 2 weeks.....

2009-01-07T09:10:00.003-05:00

Before I digress into the blog you know I have to post what I'm listening to. (It's becoming a habit now) But yesterday I found this song on Pandora (An online personal radio that lets you hear music depending on the style you like) Anyways, Jon B came up with a song called "What in the World". The song is def a good one, i'll put the song up with the album cover. (should be on the right)

So winter break is more than half way over, finally, but I've probably enjoyed myself more than any other break so far. The last thing I want to do before I go back to school is hit up a Jazz Cafe in NYC. Other than that I have no plans for the next 2 weeks. I guess I can make a list of things to prepare for and achieve next semester....let's see:
-MAINTAIN THIS STRAIGHT "A" STREAK!!!!
-ummmm, go to the gym lol (and continue to go to the gym)
-Try not to party so much, even though I think I did good this past semester
-Continue to gather good music
-DELETE THE WORD "GAT" FROM MY VOCAB! (yeah this should have been done)
-Try to eat more healthy
-last but not least, try to be more responsible with my actions and own up to them, positive or negative.

I am def looking forward for this upcoming semester. O yeah, I don't even know if I said previously happy new year and all that good stuff lol, so there you go. I'll be back soon
Enrique'

Funny....

2008-12-30T23:32:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't posted in a minute, I'm barely next to a computer until I buy my new laptop. Let's see, what you've missed:

I was awoken one morning by gun shots...(yeah it still creeps me out!)

Actually had a dream about getting shot.

My rabbit knows how to back-flip on command

Um...... the Fam is good, doing great actually, I only felt like blowing up the house twice so far lol

Haven't seen my bestfriends since I been home.

O yeah that night, (of the last post), made me not want to drink or even smell liquor for a while lmao

I called my mom a "Loser" and she was offended lol, I've called her worse though! and vice-versa, but she gets mad that I call her a loser lol

Still haven't seen the "pops", not surprised by that though.....next subject lol

Got straight A's this semester, "That's always good" lol

Being home made me realize how lucky I am to be in college and how much I want break to end so that I could hurry up and take advantage of everything I have around me!

So yeah the past couple of days has been a growing experience for me (and everyday of it I've barely gone out!) Now I'm back @ Rutgers **sigh** (I knew I wasn't gonna be able to stay home for long lol) Bday party tonight and then New Years Party tomorrow and then who knows? It will be 09' and ofcourse I'll find out what I'm doing once it happens. Until then, I'm off to party! Everyone have a happy and safe holidays and a prosperous New Years and I hope and pray God lets me see 09' safely! Before I go what am I listening to? THE RANDOM PIC ABOVE PEOPLE LOL! Drake's "Sooner than Later". Addicted thanks to the sister lol

Enrique'

O yeah P.S.

Me and the roomie are "going in" next semester! Will be further explained in next post!

Home Again....

2008-12-26T06:09:00.000-05:00

So right now I'm drunk at my friend Alexis' house...He will not let me sleep without taking another shot! I'm officially DONE! Not drunk to the point of passing out but i'm officially done, like I should not be drinking ANYMORE!!!! but my friends will not allow me to stop drinking! I just told them that I'm done and my friend said that I sleeping outside if I dont finish my cup....so I guess I'm sleeping outside! Nah but seriously, I don't waant to drink this last cup.....AND I DONT PLAN ON IT!!!
My Christmas was crazy from my mom taking me to breakfast to my mom buying a rabbit named stubby that lives in my bathroom...
My week has been long and I only been home for like 4 days!
But I've been enjoyin' it....and now I can't type any longer. So i'm done now and i'll hit you back asap!
Enrique'

Debunking the MYTH!

2008-12-23T23:08:00.000-05:00

RANDOM AS HELL BUT I HAD TO BRING IT UP FOR ALL YOU IGNORANT PEOPLE OUT THERE lol
Why are there white spots on some of our fingernails????
My roommate thought it was a calcium deficiency....I corrected him and asked him where did he hear that from. Ofcourse, he did not know. So I had to school him real quick lol....below is an article I copied and pasted:

"There are many myths surrounding those mysterious white spots on fingernails that occasionally show up, but the simple truth is that the majority of white spots on fingernails are caused by a previous injury to the nail bed. They can be loosely compared to bruises on the skin.

If you notice white spots, also known as leukonychia, on your nails, they unlikely to have been caused by a vitamin or mineral deficiency. In a few cases, white spots on fingernails can indicate an underlying infection, but much more commonly, they are the result of injury. Similar to bruising, white spots on fingernails do not show up immediately. It may take several days or weeks before you notice the spots. Because they are generally the result of a minor injury, you are likely to have forgotten all about banging your fingernail against the car door.

White spots on fingernails are usually not the result of serious injury to the nail, such as being hit with a hammer, which would more likely result in dark blue to black spots and possible necrosis or death of the nail tissue. Fingernails grow at an average rate of half an inch per month, so most visible injuries to the nail take about eight weeks to grow out completely. Sometimes, white spots on fingernails fade before they completely grow out.

Some of the common myths associated with white spots on fingernails claim they are the result of a calcium deficiency or eating too much mayonnaise. While these white spots may be the result of a zinc deficiency, it is likely that other signs of zinc deficiency, such as hair loss or a slow immune system, would be present as well. Occasionally, a few white spots on fingernails may indicate an allergic reaction to a product used on the nail, such as nail polish, hardener, or polish remover."

So people if it really matters to you why your nails should be all the same color lol, then take your zinc. And that's mt post for the night....maybe I'll write another one more later.
Enrique'

moving out..

2008-12-22T18:02:00.000-05:00

so today is the day I move out of my suite until next semester. I'm kinda really sad though LOL. I could not wait to get away from these bastards, realizing that I have more fun With them then I thought. I'm on my roommates iPhone, which I hate typing on by the way LOL, so this entry is gonna be dedicated to the "bols" LOL.... Where do I begin LOL.......

All time favorite....dmac'n for no reason at all hours of the night.
Cracking on my roommate because he can't hold a note
The only suite with black men In it
Our parties every other weekend
The arguments about "flattery gattery"
Discussions about life and future goals....few of our serious convos
Coming up with the saying "let's vent"
Raaghibs narcisism LOL ....
Coming home at anytime, 3 am or 3 pm, and knowing that my roommates are still awake.
My roommate swearing that he could rap LOL
Cleaning up my roommates throwup during the first week of school.
Having our suite meetings in the dining hall
Cris and jeremy calling me an "old man"
All we ever buy is everclear
Proffessional insomniacs
My first real roommate, probably one of the smartest and funniest
Free haircuts/shapeups
Hating everyone from one point to another
And the best thing about our suite is that it's a social source...

So yeah I can't wait til next semester. The next post will be from the hood of jersey city...be back soon
Enrique'

COPYING THE BIG SIS lol :-)

2008-12-21T19:47:00.000-05:00

Okay today I just got lazy and stole my Sister's last blog idea (THANX APRIL!!!! LUV YAH LOL)
but she stole it anyway lol, so i'm good.....lets see where do I start?
10 random things about me:

3 Gold Medals for double-dutch champion in grammar school....(My feet are sick son!) lol

I love Black and White Photos.

I have another biological brother that I never met before. (Don't even know if he knows that I exist...)

I hate Christmas Carols around Christmas time, but any other time of the year I don't mind them lol. (Crazy right)

I'm dis-proportioned, my arms are longer than most people that are taller than me.

I cannot sit "Indian Style" lol, it hurts!

No matter what mood I'm in, if a dog (puppy or full grown) is thrown my way I will be the happiest person alive for that moment lol.

I give my roommate the middle-finger atleast once per day....(yeah it's true lol)

My whole family dances, has danced, or was part of a dance team, (which includes mom and all brothers and sister)

I hate fruit, except apples and bananas, anything else I have to force down....

9 ways to win my heart:

Be Funny.

Be spontaneous.

Be honest.

Be smart.

You have to have rhythm (lol sorry sis had to add that).

Be open-minded.

Be loyal.

Keep it real.

Respect my beliefs.

8 things I want to do before I die:

Visit Honduras and Panama.

Travel across the Pacific and Atlantic Oceans respectively.

Live in Manhattan, NYC!

Be on some type of television show lol....(I was made for TV!) lol

Go to Africa.

Read my poetry amongst a crowd at a poetry reading in the city (or other urban surrounding).

Be in one more dance show...atleast one more.

Have a Masters Degree.

7 ways to annoy me:

Calling me from a blocked number.

Saying something I deem as "retarded" or "GAT" lol

Waking me up when I don't want to be woken.

Not being able to keep up with me....

Asking questions repeatedly over and over and over (even though i do that, i'm the only one allowed to lol).

Acting drunk around me while I'm not drunk lol (Maybe it's me just hating) lol

People forcing me to dance, I DANCE WHEN I WANT! lol

6 things I believe in:

God

"Racism still alive. They just be concealing it." (Had 2 steal it sis)

Barack Obama

That humans were not meant to be monogamist.

"Money is the root of all evil" (Had 2 steal it again sis)

R.C.S

5 things I am afraid of:

Dying, Death (Myself and others)

Failure (Damn sis you hit it on the head with this one lol)

Obama getting assassinated during his presidency.

Bridges that are high above water (But I love the view, so i try to get over the fear, just doesn't work)

Not having friends.

4 of my favorite things

My attitude.

The music I listen to.

My friends (Like real friends, not associates, but people that would die for me and vice versa)

Lucky Charms lol

3 things I do daily:

Curse ( yes I tried to stop, didn't work out lol)

Get mad that I don't have a phone!!!

Eat one big meal (which is probably unhealthy)

2 things I want to do within the hour:

Sing

Find a way of getting home tomorrow.

1 person I want to see right now:

That's a good question....I sat here thinking for like 10 minutes and I don't know. Only thing I was thinking was my puppy that got hit by a school bus when I was younger. That's really who I want to see right now and he's not even a person :-(

Wow so maybe I am a real random person lol....Hey I guess it's worth it. Makes me an individual.
Now off to find out how i'm getting home!!!! lol

Enrique'

Grow A F*ckin' Back Bone.....

2008-12-21T00:03:00.000-05:00

Yeah, that's how I'm feeling right now....going through an episode again....(It's funny cuz it happens around the same time now)
Okay, but this time I feel like I know the reason. I really don't want to tell the situation verbatim but basically A friend was going somewhere tonight and I would not have mind going to chill with this friend. When I asked "who was throwing the event" I got the response of "I don't wanna tell you"
Okay Okay....I'm an asshole sometimes, so I couldn't get mad when my friend said this. This is how we play around sometimes so I was like "okay, i guess..."
So then I hit up another friend and asked "What are you doing tonight"
The other friend told me that he was going with the first friend that wouldn't tell me who was throwing the event. I was confused, but then I was like "ok, whatever......"

Now I usually look at the side of the situation that is wrong, get mad at it, get mad at the individuals, but then I realize that I def am my own INDIVIDUAL and I should have a life outside of a group of specific people. It's actually not that hard for me, but I usually prefer sticking to my core group of friends. But I guess I can't always do that. I'm very weak to friendship, (hence the growing of a backbone) and I guess I felt some type of way, as I always do, when I wasn't included.

So, that's gonna be one of my New Years resolutions...to GROW A FREAKING BACKBONE...lol
People tend to say that I'm a negative person, but I guess I'm just negative because of lack of a backbone if it makes sense? lol....

What am I listening to right now? Zhane'=very soothing...I'm such an "Old Head" right sis? lol
I'mma stay in for the rest of the night I guess....marinate in this mellow mood of mine...will be back soon....
Enrique

Parties...

2008-12-18T23:01:00.000-05:00

Before I continue, everybody out there Who likes R&B needs to listen to this guys music, def underrated and needs to get better PR.....but I digress,

So it's a Thursday night in college during finals, I'm done with all of mine and it's 11:07 P.M. WITH MULTIPLE PARTIES GOING ON.....and why am i not at a party or going to one right now?
Not in the mood? When has Ricardo ever said he was not in the mood to go to a party. and that's when you know he is feelin' some type of way (Okay i'mma stop talkin in third person lol)
I don't know what it is though...Breaths are more heavier than usual, face is a little more serious than usual and I really don't give a ish about anything at the moment...

The thing is that this mood swing thing has been happening for years....and it's not serious like Bipolar disorder or something of the nature because if I really wanted to I would go out, I just really don't feel like it now. I hope i'm not crazy for feelin this type of way.

And Now Juicy Campus is getting blown out of proportion, people are starting rumors of people left and right, now me and my friends are just waiting for our names to be on the website. Oy ve', this world we live in lol.

And in a couple of days I'll be back in Jersey City, best place on Earth. Hopefully I won't get shot at so I could finish next semester lol, (not funny though, def could happen).

So my plans for the night thus far are to stay in my room and lay down for a minute, not too long though cuz it is kind of early....I really hope my mood changes, then maybe I could smile one more time tonight....

2008-12-17T06:51:00.000-05:00

FINALS ARE DONE....

Another semester finished and another chance to relax and not worry about anything having to be handed in or pop-quizzes or work in general. Waiting for breakfast to open because all i have time for now is to chill with friends and play spades all night lol....Isn't that the good life?

Now the question is, what am I going to do once I get home? (For those who know me you know how serious of a question that is to me) I do have many friends there and my mom and family but I have this thing where every time I stay home for extended amounts of time something happens. Usually the "something that happens" is not a good "something" lol....Either an argument or random situation arises, which causes me to want to go back to school in a Jiffy (1/100th of a second lol). Hopefully nothing like this will happen during the break.....:-/

Anywho, breakfast is coming soon, actually right about now and i def would type more but my bro Moses is sleeping and my typing can be a little loud at times lol. So i'll holla back as soon as possible!

Enrique'